even with a new start

its hard to be thin. It takes alot of will power and determination, motivation, to succeed. I started dieting on Monday. I didn't do too bad but I could have done better. I'm taking a pill that helps you lose weight. And I also would love to use laxatives more often but its hard when you have a baby, you can't just run to the bathroom whenever if the baby needs to be fed or starts crying for whatever reason. *sigh* I feel like giving up........... :/