shouldn't even surprise me.

so on Thursday I went to class as usual, got out about an hour early and went to my bfs house. I had asked him to please drop off a box at the mail box and he said he would take a shower and do it for me. When i got there he was watching tv, and still hadn't showered. No big deal, I say 'ok, why don't you go shower already?' he agreed and went on his way.

I went to use his computer to check my email and noticed he was logged on his myspace account, since he has lied to me in the past, I checked his email, etc. couldn't find anything inappropriate, I log off. When I try to log on MY account, I start typing in my email and another email pops up there, I think...'strange.' I check my stuff and when he comes back I ask him if he has another myspace account that i dont know about, he denies it, i ask again, denies, I say 'I'm gonna ask you one last time and i want to you tell me the truth' so finally he admits he does.

I initially thought maybe one of his friends had logged on his account on my bfs computer, but no, it was HIS account aswell. I said "ohhh, so you have a separate account to be able to secretly talk to all these girls, is that what it is?' he says "no!." Oh really?, lets see" I make him log in to this account and sure enough ALL the 60 something people on there were girls, he had been emailing some of them back and forth, flirting, looking at their pics (because by the way all these girls were sluts, the type of girls that post sexual pictures of themselves) and whats even worse, telling them they are 'gorgeous' and even requesting they let him see even more private photos of themselves.

That really disgusted me, it made me think so much less of him. I feel like he is a completely different person than who I thought he was, I feel like i don't even know him. I'm just so sick of his lies, his shady conduct. We had already had arguments about similar shit and he had assured me nothing had happened and made it seem like he wouldn't do it again. He's obviously a liar, a fucking pervert who doesn't respect me or the fact that I was fucking pregnant at the time he was sending these disgusting flirty emails and looking at photos of these sluts.