I dont know

why things happen the way they do, I really don't. Is life a 'plan' we are following?, or can we change it and fuck it up / make it good, on our own?

All I know is that I REALLY had strong feelings for you but they have faded away for the most part. I don't know if I have anything left to give. It hurts me to even think that, because I remember what we had and it made me so happy. Maybe what makes me more sad is the fact that in some way I feel responsible for fucking it up and not knowing how to make it right. We both made mistakes but did I make the most?.. I dont know.

I think I'm starting to like this other guy that I've been hanging out with lately. He's cool and I really enjoy spending time with him. I can't wait to hang out with him again.. is that weird?.. is that good?... I have no fucking clue.