frustrating

I was very frustrated earlier. I texted my bf and told him that, after he was done with his gig, he needed to get his ass overhere and take care of Austin (our baby) because I had yet to be able to workout! He called me on his break telling me I sounded really frustrated, I was like.. yah no shit! He offered to come pick up our baby and babysit him at his house for the night but then my mom got home and she took him instead.

I was already dreading having to work out and then all this crap happened, good thing I still did it, better late than never. I was sooo sleepy ughh. I feel good about working out, now if I can only eat a little less than what I am eating now, that'd be great! I get frustrated easier now with things, but then again can you blame me? its not easy being a first time mom and caring for a new born. I'm glad I waited a good while to have a baby and didn't end up a teen mom.

I do miss being more independent and free, being able to just get up and go for a ride without having to take 15 minutes getting the diaper bag ready, having a smoke in the car (which I don't anymore) whenever I feel like it, going out late at night with my bestie, going out to the club without having to look for someone to babysit, or simply having me time with no interruptions.

You know, I've ALWAYS been told I look younger than my age, that's awesome, I don't mind that at all. But now that I have a baby and have frustrations and stressful situations more often, I'm afraid I'm gonna get white hair or get a few wrinkles on me heh... ahhh.. knock on wood! *sigh*... I need to find ways to deal with these situations. I love my baby though, so at the end its all worth it.