No Smoking!

It's been so long since I've really felt like myself. Pregnancy has really been a huge change in my life, and I cant even imagine how things will change when the baby is here. I used to feel like I could do anything, go anywhere, consume anything, I was in charge of things. Now I have to think about the little person living inside me first.

I know it might sound silly but I miss just being able to have a drink with friends or my bf, I miss having a cig, haven't had one of those in what seems like ages. I have to be careful of what I eat, can't just eat junk food like I could before if I wanted to. I miss being able to just have iced coffee all day long or not eating if I wasn't feeling hungry! I MISS BEING ABLE TO WEAR MY FREAKING CLOTHES!, I miss working out at the gym!, going jogging with my best friend, I miss staying up til 6 in the morning, I MISS MY PRE-PREGNANCY BODY!, I miss going shopping for clothes that I like to wear, not having to think if it'll fit in the next couple of weeks, I miss going out to the bar or club without having to worry if its too loud for my baby, I miss smoking a joint once in a while, I MISS FEELING HOT AND SEXY!, I miss having NORMAL fucking sex with my bf, I miss being flirty, I miss feeling strong, I miss feeling "fine," without having to put up with any pregnancy symptom, I miss living one day at a time, not over stressing or worrying about the future, I MISS FEELING CONFIDENT!, I miss being me.