I hate this..

I hate feeling this insecure sometimes. It's not like I look repulsive, but I've gained 15lbs so far and my body's change a lot!... I feel like I could balloon up in a second, scares me to think that I could I'll even get heavier and gain 15+ more lbs.

I love my boyfriend and I want to look good for him, and ofcourse feel good about myself, feel confident. *sigh* There's alot of things we used to do together that we can't do right now, even sex is less because I dont feel in the mood, dont feel pretty, I just feel fat :/

Did yall know that pregnancy is not 9 months but TEN!, yup, ten freaking months! so this Saturday I'll be 7 months exactly, you'd think "oh yay!" only 2 more months to go, nope!, its THREE more freaking months to go... grrr!! I hate it!