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Finally, people tell me, "awww, I can see the bump now." Cool, I can definitely see it too lol. I'm getting bigger by the minute :/ My boobs are sooo freaking itchy!! kinda sounds gross lol, but its because they are growing, yup, even more! Not only that but now they leak a tiny bit from time to time... o___O weird. It kinda threw me off at first, but then I realized that its colostrum, not exactly milk but the stuff that comes out before the baby milk.

I kinda feel bad, my boyfriend, who I love! has been wanting to umm.. well, have sex, and I have been telling him to wait. I mean, I don't think I can even get in the mood because right now I feel achy half the time, or unattractive. He tells me I'm beautiful no matter what, but you know that when you feel the way you feel, it doesn't really make a difference what other people tell you. Yet when someone tells you you look fat, etc. you believe it right away. Messed up, I know! He has been pretty understanding, but I know I have to put my part too.

I feel like a freaking beach ball!! *sigh*... ok ok... hopefully only about 3 1/2 months to go! Baby! come soon!!! mommy wants to get her body back! I love you!! :)