sparkling eyes

So im siting here thinking about my current status. I am 14 weeks pregnant, starting my second trimester. I feel weird at times, like I'm wearing an ugly body costume that I can't take off. I dont feel as much as myself as I'd like, I hope that's normal with pregnancy. I just can't do alot of the things I enjoy doing, eating, feeling, I don't look the way I did before I got pregnant.

I'm trying to think positive and think that this will soon be over with, but then I start to think, wait a minute, once I have the baby my life won't be the same anymore either! I will have a huge responsibility. Somehow I don't feel as nervous or anxious about that as I perhaps should feel like. I'm confident and hopeful that I will be a good mother to my child and still be able to have my own time at least when need be.

My next appointment is in a little less than two weeks, I REALLY hope they do a sonogram and can tell me the gender of the baby. That way I can start planning ahead, perhaps buy a thing or two and start thinking about what to name him/her. For some reason I keep thinking it will be a girl and have only considered baby girl names. It's hard though, I don't have any 'good' names in mind yet... any suggestions?...