what made my day.

my niece makes me smile.. eventhough its hard to smile lately. 
i have nothing to smile about, why? because the person that I care about can't comprehend that...
It sucks because ive always been an optimistic person and now im the complete opposite.

i hungout with G today. It was nice. I feel like ive completely neglected him for a while. I feel bad. I care about him and how he feels, always. He's one of the most important people in my life right now.. i dont know what i'd do without him. He's been with me through really hard times. 08 was a really bad year. I thought this year would be better, but half way down the line I'm realizing its not. If I was optimistic I'd say "well, at least it wasn't as bad as 08" but being the pessimist I say "it will probably only get worse."

Anyway.. it was nice hanging out with G.. I feel like Im reconnecting with him again. He said he knows I been down lately, he knows me. and that whatever he can do to make it better he's there.. how nice.. heh. He also said I seemed a little bit better.. yeah, i felt a tiny bit better and with that tiny bit i was able to be more myself... I made him laugh alot... I missed laughing.. specially about stupid shit that doesn't always make sense.

my mom made me smile today too. it was soo random and not exactly something to laff about but me, being me lol it made me laugh. I get home, go through the door, she sees me and says 'you're a hipie now?' haha.. im like.. wha? why?.. she's like.. 'cus ur wearing a headband like a hipie lol.. i was like mom.. i always wear headbands silly lol.. i love my mom so much :)