I want tons of gifts!! heh.. jk. I want to have a good christmas and spend it with the people I love and care for, most importantly. I've never really liked christmas because it always seems kinda gloomy to me, idk why it just does. Maybe its the weather... its cold, rainy, windy... the sun doesn't come out much.. idk.. I guess I'm a sunny girl :)
Its weird that this will be the 3rd christmas without dad... its sooo sad.. it makes me depressed.. and eventhough I dont show it, I can't help but cry just to think that he wont be around to celebrate with us :(... *sigh*... the other day I was watching tv and they gave a xmas commercial about specials on Sears.. it immediately reminded me of dad and I got teary eyed.. but ofcourse I try not to let my emotions take over me because .. I guess I don't like to cry in front of people (who does, right?) and i don't want to worry anyone either.
He loved that store. He liked it because they have 'really good quality tools' as he would say. Christmas will never be the same... but I want to try and make it a decent christmas surrounded by my family who I love with all my heart.
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